nah, i'm not suddenly leaving earlier - in fact, the assignments have just started coming in.
jon's leaving bangalore this friday, and he gets back to singapore on saturday. a couple of days ago i got mad at him because i was severely caught in the deep, dark throes of homesickness when he said you know, i'm not quite ready to leave yet. and i was like dude, how can anyone not want to go back to singapore? how can you not want to go home and WAIT FOR ME TO COME HOME. which sounds ridiculous, and was pretty unreasonable of me, i'll admit. but girls have these weird moments.
but now that i'm feeling better about my remaining time in beijing (see previous posts) and determined to just make the best of things, even doing my assignments (in chinese!), i feel a bit wistful. because he's right, his time in bangalore did fly by, and while i know he's glad to be going home it all seems pretty sudden. soon enough i won't be sending him smses or calling him with a string of 12 numbers, just eight, and the number saved under jon bangalore is going to be redundant.
it's not just that though. i think i'm also feeling wistful because it's been a difficult, yet amazing and sweet almost eight months for us, and his going back to singapore marks the beginning of the end of exchange, and of this period of growth. i think it'll feel different for both of us when it's time for me to go back to singapore though. so maybe, after all, it's just like this because i won't be there at the airport when he lands.
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i've got an exam tomorrow, and i've been taking naps during the day, in between finishing up my notes. quite pleasant, really, especially since it rained two days ago and the cold after-rain feeling's not quite dissipated yet.
speaking of making the best of things, there's that saying about making lemonade when life hands you lemons, right? i've bought a large bag of dried lemon slices, and i've been drinking a lot of what i suppose i must call lemon tea as you have to steep them in boiling water. pretty close, you think?
jon's leaving bangalore this friday, and he gets back to singapore on saturday. a couple of days ago i got mad at him because i was severely caught in the deep, dark throes of homesickness when he said you know, i'm not quite ready to leave yet. and i was like dude, how can anyone not want to go back to singapore? how can you not want to go home and WAIT FOR ME TO COME HOME. which sounds ridiculous, and was pretty unreasonable of me, i'll admit. but girls have these weird moments.
but now that i'm feeling better about my remaining time in beijing (see previous posts) and determined to just make the best of things, even doing my assignments (in chinese!), i feel a bit wistful. because he's right, his time in bangalore did fly by, and while i know he's glad to be going home it all seems pretty sudden. soon enough i won't be sending him smses or calling him with a string of 12 numbers, just eight, and the number saved under jon bangalore is going to be redundant.
it's not just that though. i think i'm also feeling wistful because it's been a difficult, yet amazing and sweet almost eight months for us, and his going back to singapore marks the beginning of the end of exchange, and of this period of growth. i think it'll feel different for both of us when it's time for me to go back to singapore though. so maybe, after all, it's just like this because i won't be there at the airport when he lands.
***
i've got an exam tomorrow, and i've been taking naps during the day, in between finishing up my notes. quite pleasant, really, especially since it rained two days ago and the cold after-rain feeling's not quite dissipated yet.
speaking of making the best of things, there's that saying about making lemonade when life hands you lemons, right? i've bought a large bag of dried lemon slices, and i've been drinking a lot of what i suppose i must call lemon tea as you have to steep them in boiling water. pretty close, you think?
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