there beneath the blue suburban skies

i've decided that don't look back in anger is about a guy cheating on his girlfriend because he's really pissed off with her.

i'll never forget that article in life! where liam (or noel?) said he didn't know what the hell the song was about sally?? who's sally?

jon insisted that the gallagher brothers were lying, because they just had to, to maintain oasis' image. i don't know, no one will ever know. but the song's playing in the office now because one of the legal assistants has her radio on all day, and it's one of my all-time oasis favourites the other one being sunday morning call. which no one has ever heard because i don't think it's been released on radio here and jon says it's just weird because they have this whole nahnahnahnah bit.

anyhow, i've decided that don't look back in anger's about an affair because -

and so, sally can wait
she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
her soul slides away
but don't look back in anger
i heard you say

so sally's the girl who treated her boyfriend really badly, and he was really hurt and decided to up and go, get together with another girl. but of course he really loved sally, see, so he can't forget her. or rather he can't forget how much she hurt him, made him angry, ruined his life, treated him like a dog (hurhur. private joke, about dogs. don't you just hate it when people blog this way), in short, he was DOMINATED.

and then sally realises he was the only guy who'd ever put up with her nonsense but it's too late because he's passing her by.

of course this is just some post lunch rambling, you don't have to take me too seriously. especially since i'm still high on the coffee i had this morning.

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i smsed cass today because i found out something about _______ and _____ on facebook and i was like omg cass how come _______ and _____ are together??? and because she's all the way in sunshine florida of course she's not going to reply because it's just plain gossip and you don't waste money gossiping. smses from the states must be about 80+ cents?

but it's so strange! and i was reading _____'s blog, about the past, and it's strangely comforting yet horrifying to realise that girls more or less experience the same things when they start dating too young. i remember feeling terribly, dreadfully and awfully alone when i was 15, when i was 17 - looking back, i'd never wish that kind of trauma on anyone else. it scars you for a pretty long time, i think, unless you manage to surrender it to God completely and SOON. doesn't scar you for life, because you can fall in love again, but still.

and i wonder sometimes how many of us actually do, or have the chance to. yes, i suppose it's the thought that there might be girls out there who never have the chance to that upsets me. and the saddest thing about it all is that i think, for girls like me and you, to be able to withstand so much trauma at such a young age, we're the ones who can love, totally completely and unconditionally. or can all girls? maybe, i wouldn't know.

don't suppose it's as bad as pain caused by your family, but still - that's the kind of thing that really scars you for life la. so i don't think we've had it so bad, after all.

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okay this post is going to be full of "______" because i really should not name the people i'm talking about. so this morning i saw _____ on the bus and subsequently the train to work and i was busy smsing jon about how she was so hot and i could like so totally die at that instant (to quote yalan: faints nosebleed and die NOW) then i realised her bum wasn't very nice. so i was telling him about how God was fair, and see la if you don't exercise and starve yourself to stay skinny your bum becomes a funny shape.

there i was, smirking about how i have a nice bum (hahaha!! as if!!) because i run a lot. and then i caught sight of it in the sliding doors of the train and realised it looked awful in my skirt because my skirt's about a size too big for me. eh really okay, i'm not just making excuses.

anyway this is a very rambly and after-lunchy sort of post. too bad. i'm not in the mood to expend proper energy. yet. slightly less than a week to australia with abi to see lovely miss loong :) yay! and yalan's coming back from taipei todayyyy!!111!!!!