I feel like wearing my AC uniform and heading out to Sogurt at 2:45 p.m., just as if I was in JC and we got let out early and there was really nothing else better to do but eat expensive yogurt and talk cock until it was time to go home and take a nap before dinner.
I don't really know what it is that I feel wistful about, but I've been feeling wistful the past week (which was also the week after my one measly week of year-end leave, where Jon and I, among other things, went cycling in Malaysia for a day and came back sunburnt but full of good seafood). Or, to put things more accurately, I think I'm just sian.
Jon thinks (and I agree, really) that I'm too involved with clients' lives.
I tell everyone that I'm more detached than I thought I would be, doing family matters - and it's true. I never thought I'd be able to listen to the sad facts of other peoples' lives and go on to draft affidavits about these things so matter of factly. But there you have it. I don't think I've become unfeeling, or unsympathetic - you've just gotta do what you've gotta do. And more importantly, I believe in it. I believe that family lawyers can genuinely help people achieve what they deserve, the "just and equitable result".
But once in a while you find out something about the people you're working for (the law mandates that they have to share the boring, mundane details of their lives with you, like, for example, what they bought for breakfast for the whole of November) that makes you sit up and wonder at how random all our lives are. And you tell yourself that God knows the details of all our lives, and He's got them all in His hands so you shouldn't get so involved or concerned about it because they are just clients but you still can't shake off the niggling feeling of Randomness.
I think that about sums up what's making me feel so sian (wistful) - because I think I'm feeling wistful (sian) for a time when I didn't know Just How Random life really is.
Also, there are some things one can't blog about, the things that are driving me up the wall. Some days I feel like screaming out loud and going for a long lunch and looking at pretty things in the shops because it's Christmas after all and everyone's going for long lunches and looking at pretty things in the shops.
All that being said, I don't know what 2011 will bring, but I'm looking forward to it. Planning for the wedding, buying a house, BSF again (really).
Thank You, God, for the Good Book and the encouragement it gives to my weary soul.
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Everyday at 0103 hours Microsoft Exchange sends me an email to tell me that my Inbox is almost full.
I don't really know what it is that I feel wistful about, but I've been feeling wistful the past week (which was also the week after my one measly week of year-end leave, where Jon and I, among other things, went cycling in Malaysia for a day and came back sunburnt but full of good seafood). Or, to put things more accurately, I think I'm just sian.
Jon thinks (and I agree, really) that I'm too involved with clients' lives.
I tell everyone that I'm more detached than I thought I would be, doing family matters - and it's true. I never thought I'd be able to listen to the sad facts of other peoples' lives and go on to draft affidavits about these things so matter of factly. But there you have it. I don't think I've become unfeeling, or unsympathetic - you've just gotta do what you've gotta do. And more importantly, I believe in it. I believe that family lawyers can genuinely help people achieve what they deserve, the "just and equitable result".
But once in a while you find out something about the people you're working for (the law mandates that they have to share the boring, mundane details of their lives with you, like, for example, what they bought for breakfast for the whole of November) that makes you sit up and wonder at how random all our lives are. And you tell yourself that God knows the details of all our lives, and He's got them all in His hands so you shouldn't get so involved or concerned about it because they are just clients but you still can't shake off the niggling feeling of Randomness.
I think that about sums up what's making me feel so sian (wistful) - because I think I'm feeling wistful (sian) for a time when I didn't know Just How Random life really is.
Also, there are some things one can't blog about, the things that are driving me up the wall. Some days I feel like screaming out loud and going for a long lunch and looking at pretty things in the shops because it's Christmas after all and everyone's going for long lunches and looking at pretty things in the shops.
All that being said, I don't know what 2011 will bring, but I'm looking forward to it. Planning for the wedding, buying a house, BSF again (really).
Thank You, God, for the Good Book and the encouragement it gives to my weary soul.
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Everyday at 0103 hours Microsoft Exchange sends me an email to tell me that my Inbox is almost full.
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